HERE ON EARTH

 is so hard live with depressed..... but i don't wanna talk about this again :D..... i take my medication

last night, is a big problem because when you took the antidepresivos... you cant remember anything you cant with the pain and hate you feel.    :D

Como sea, someday in the past i try kill myself, and late i go to the clinic rehab and is a long history, and i don't like how the people explain what is love. I'm angry and i hate when the boy and girls said nobody love and the hate and poor love there is a big hole in their  hearts.

so i decide don't eat for 3 day i want to be lovely for somebody else, but I'm fat :@.

 in Mexico city, there is vocational period  semana Santa in Mexico the people take holidays for two weeks and they go to the beach and anther places for take a relax time so, i hate this day but i spend my time whit family and my friend :D. so recently i staying writ ting new song maybe in the next day i public my demos but i have so many troubles i cant play the guitar and i don't know how touch the music and i really want a big musical demo, but i don't know i have the control to make that.

i cant found my inspiration to make the sound about my song but i think i will found the way, como sea quiero hacer un grand demo de musica por que se que puedo y tengo una v0z genial :D haha ok no pero si es genial, so les dejo un viedo inspiracional ok no es mas como un video, que trata sobre el estar vivo y sentirse bien con tigo mismo, #forever alone :D 

"here on earth" by Cary brothers is my song in the last day and is really funny and electric hehe with tiesto, he is a big and great DJ, i love his work in the music electronic so enjoy!

> this song is my closest experience to feeling what being in love feels like. beside being one of my favourite songs in the history of songs, i always come to listen to this song to remind me that i am not a robot and i can possibly have regular human emotions lol but really this an amazing piece of music

lejos estamos mejor ( motel mexican band 2007) vs i don't love you (my chemical romance USA band 2007)

well right now i wanna speak about a band in Mexico  called MOTEL, i don't know this band is working now but when i was to high school i used to hear always and ever day,   this band ( MOTEL) is very special for me because the sound and lyrics  like a perfect depressed and deep blue, and the music video is  a diamond, that song is "LEJOS ESTAMOS MEJOR"   es la mejor cancion que escuchado en mi  maldita vida, la letra habla de desamor y de como its so hurt stay with a person.
in the video can you see a perfect love but when they break up, can see the hurt and pain and all thing break your heart and soul.
the first time i saw the video in the high school i told my self its so stupid cry for somebody, i never make that action but  yeah when i was 15 years old, now i 22 years old and i feel real love and i have a big  paint because my love isnt no here with me and  its sad por que se que lejos estamos mejor, in mexico there is so much band and better that american or others,  i wanna said there is cool and fresh and good music in mexico, mexico rocks :), you should listen that song, when you listen that song you think in you love or old love, but you never understan why its better said lejos estamos mejor.

Vamos corazones rotos, sequen sus ojos, sino las lagrimas no les permitirá ver el nuevo sol que pronto saldrá por sus nuevos horizontes./Let broken hearts , dry your eyes , but the tears will not let them see the new sun will soon emerge for their new horizons.

la cancion habla de como decir adios a special people you only and one love, cuando ya no hay mas por hacer, querido despues de romper:(.

i dont love you like i did yesterday: well my second song is i dont love you by my chemical romance, that band i was my favority in era EMO in the high school 2007-2009 solia escuchar todas sus canciones me identifique con ellos, cañon , his music its amazing and come they rocks and all album its power full and good lyrics, and the sound wooow i really felt love and i cant stop hear, that song make me cry really, i remember i had a boyfriend in the secundary school well ok no but there is a boy always make me angry and hit in the face or body, so some day he try to kiss me and i said stop fuck idiot i dont love you, so that song remember that beause so then me and he go to the same high school but he go to other group so diferrent to me, so that song its about remember old lover that lover break your heart and you can said i dont love you like i did yesterday, ovio no lo amaba tanto pero pues algo despues fuimos buenos amigos. pero its so funny beacuse i think he hate me but he really love , watever i dont care but. beacuse now he have a girlfriend and i used to be have a boyfriend but when i hear that song i really thing in my older lover and the beautiful past.

in my opinion the song and musica lejos estamos mejor y i dont love you son canciones ernormes que te hace doler y te recuerdan que es muy dificil llevar un relacion amorosa y the fights and angry moments in love and hate about the special people. me quedo con las 2 canciones me recuerda mi etapa emo cañon, las dos canciones son de lo mejor y estan super heavy

rocks rules, rock is love and hate :D

i'm depressed for somebody else

hi! today a wanna talk about new :( ok no theres so mucho sadness in me, and last week i felt in deep blue, and later i seen my favority tv show called "SKINS",  i really like that show because its about trouble and life around younger grup friend.

in this show you meet  all caracters and its wonderfull and all full episode describe the life the people normal people in normal life. sorry #spanglish.

anyways i dont feel good with me and myself , its like all my life fall in pieces yeah! i dont how explains that and its really bad when you think about the kill yourself, and i try kill me self and then i decide no, but i remember old days when i never ate anything in 2008 or 2009 and yeah i dont eat so my family send to rehab. 

and i remember that show because in SKINS there is a girl called cassie its my favority character in the show and she have anorexia, and depresion por que sus padres no le prestan atencion, el chico que le gusta pues literal no le hace caso, el chavo llamado sid es you know tonto hehe. en cierta forma lo que cassie hace es auto destruirse es malo por que en cierta forma  es como que trata de pedir ayuda, 

a lo largo de la temperada, vemos como se auto-destruye sin comer, drogandose, volviendose un poco promiscua. al final de la tempora ella huye de bristol, y se muda a estados unidos, en esta parte entra la parte de amor :D wooow, sid es el chavo que no la valoro cuando ella lo necesitaba, es como dificil todos hemos pasado por ello, como sea. sid se da cuenta de que cassie vale mucho y va a buscarla al final no terminar juntos, literal la serie SKINS es muy confusa si son fans veanla muy recomendable.

so sid never found cassie and she come back to london, she live a new life and wait for somenthing 

she never return old costumber and she had a good end. 

but the love between her in him , its beautifull :D.

:( it's all over skins that make me cry :,(/todo se ha terminado:( </