me or old me :(........... so sad so sad

hello. beautiful blank page ............ i dont like talk about anything in the last days, weeks , moths..... i have so many bad days in my life, i dont feel good and this life sucks when the people ask or tell me lie or new notices about the perfect life, i dont know the perfect live exict but nothing compare when you are broken and all thing in world or in  your life was going bad, so im young boy, im 23 years old  and i dont what to do with my life im sick, i really sick, but i remember when i was 17 years old, and i dont care about nothing and  now is like all thing care so much, maybe im growing old so fast, i would like travel to USA or CANNADA but i know i have take my decision but so hard to make that,  the most hard desicion a took in the past is choose what university i will go when i was fished my high school, and i now i have take a desicion about my healthy ........ i want my life back but i have so many thing i dont have any more , why the life are so complicated...... i want some love,happyness and i really want a happy ending for first time in my life but i dont know how end my history i know be strong but what happen when you lost the time day at day,,, this is a short history how i feel right now so .... the only thing i know is would like enjoy the life and think about my mistake in the past .... so oxxo hehehe ok no bye the next time bbs.

is so sad never come back to the past and live all things you past in the past but what happen when you have one chance to make the thing, in the last week i was though about this and i sad because is like nobody can help in this time , when i wake up i think in my short life i dont wanna die but, why its the most thing important in a life,,,,,,, never know that only when all days are count.

this song make me cry right now i cant understand why :(

me in 2009

when i was young, i never care about my family or my friends or anything, i used to be pass my day in my bussiness and my problems, i so afraid for that i wish come back to the past and change my mind but i dont know i suppose im better person right now.

i miss so may thing but the past is past and i try to move in other directions but i have some many problems now, i cant fight and im tired to try so i have the power to make this.... i dont know .... i want other version of me and the only way to change is travel to other place so war away from my old life :(

amazing song to hear in a bored sunday so bye.